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I could summarize this answer in one word - nothing. I can be more blunt and say, "Not a damned thing." I don't want to die as a victim of a gunman. I want to love who I love and feel free to have a job that I like where I can't be fired because of who I sleep with! I want to earn enough to pay my bills and live in a decent place because I can't be thrown out for my sexuality.
The vast majority of gay people around the world, now more than ever, are only trying to get through each day. We have joys, we have sadness. We have grief.....more than our fair share of grief. We know what it means to hold our heads high and put on a brave face, even when we are terrified on the inside.
I know what it is like to have a haircut that immediately is perceived as male. One day, 7 years ago, I decided that the long hair wasn't me. I hated it. Each time I looked in the mirror, the person who looked back at me wasn't anyone that I could feel good about because she was hiding a huge part of herself. I didn't want to do it anymore. I went and got a pair of clippers and I buzzed my hair all off. I did it at home because it took me another 3-4 years to have the courage to walk into a barber shop and ask them to cut my hair. I was so afraid of the discrimination I could face. I had heard friends of mine who had been tossed out of barber shops. I walked by his door several times before I finally went in. He told me he has seen me walking by and wondered if I'd ever come in. He was nice. I breathed a huge sigh of relief. Not every barber shop will cut your hair when you are female and perceived as "one of THOSE lesbians." I just wanted to be able to wear my hair the way I wanted. End of story. I bet that most of you take that for granted don't you? If you are straight, I bet you've never been told that they wouldn't cut your hair the way you wanted. I've been told several times and no matter how I tell them I want it on the sides, females will have to be told constantly, "shorter" and it makes me crazy. I have shown them pictures of what I want and they STILL can't bring themselves to do it. Why?? It's just hair for crise sake! I like it that way and I'm paying for it. Cut my freaking hair the way I want. Put that on my agenda!
Most of you probably take it for granted that when you rent an apartment, that you can have whoever over to visit you that you want. I even imagine that you would expect to date whomever you choose and be free to have them spend the night. I, on the other hand, know what it is like to have someone spend the night and then experience the landlord sneaking around the property the next day to see if he could confirm his suspicions and then serve me with an eviction notice for "having lifestyle choices he didn't agree with and surely didn't want happening on HIS property." So I moved. I moved three other times for the exact same reason. I know what it is like to eventually have your girlfriend keep her stuff in a separate bedroom just so that you have a cover story when repairs needed to be made and a landlord entered the property.
I have actually been told to my face that if I would make an "effort to wear some make-up and grow my hair a little longer" that I would be more likely to get promoted. I worked twice as hard as any man in my position and I could do their job AND mine. I still got passed over. My evaluations would say things like "needs to come in on day off more often and show more dedication" while my general manager was taking extra days off to go fishing. As a manager of a restaurant, I put in 62 hours each week on a short week. Some weeks could see me there as much as 100 hours. My time off became very priceless to me. I needed it. I wasn't giving that up when I should have to! I never got promoted but watched other male peers who were hired after me, knew less than me, get promoted before me. I finally walked away from management for this very reason. I wanted to be seen for who I was, based on the job that I could do. Isn't that on everyone's agenda? Write that shit down!
You see...I'm worse that just a woman in a man's world. I'm a woman who often passes for a man and outworks a man. I'm a threat because I'm a woman who doesn't back down and I am told that I'm aggressive when I know that if I were a man saying and doing the exact same things, I'd just be considered "driven and ambitious." I no longer have any desire to compete in the workplace. I'll come in and get paid hourly. I just want to earn enough money to exist and while I'd like a little upward mobility, it is definitely NOT worth sacrificing who I am or having to kiss ass for it. That's definitely on my queer agenda. Write that shit down. "Will NOT kiss ass." Make sure you spell it right.
This past week, my community of GLBTQ Americans have been all over the news. Pulse night club in Orlando was attacked by an armed gunman. 49 people are dead and the last I heard, 53 were hospitalized with injuries. My community has been flung into the spotlight again. Targeted by hate and everyone around us arguing this is an ISIS act of terrorism, not a hate crime. I would like to be seen as an American first and foremost. Being gay is a small part of the bigger picture and I am baffled by this entire argument going on right now. What does it matter? The copycat crimes are already starting. Just this morning a church in Dallas, Texas was delayed for services because of a piece of suspicious luggage that could have been a bomb. My people are used to being targets but this shit is getting ridiculous. Keep arguing that it isn't fueled by hate. It's your lie, believe it if you want to. I'm not taking anymore bullshit. Write it down...."take. no. more. bullshit."
What we aren't used to is the outpouring of love and support from so many people! It's nice to see that there is hope and there are many people out there who DO care and are watching with eyes wide open now. I won't chastise you about coming to fight a little late. I'm just glad you're here now. Thank you to every ally we have right now. I don't care how long it took you to wake up from your slumber, I want to thank you for boarding the right train and getting on over to the right side of history. I'm thankful. Add that to my queer agenda. Be thankful and be humble with the people who've earned this from me.
We aren't used to having the title of the 'largest mass shooting in American history" quite yet either. I will tell you this though, we can handle it. The NRA has no idea who they have fighting them for more gun control now! I, like others in my shoes in this GLBTQ community, know what it is like to have to fight for EVERYTHING in this life we live.....even just getting our hair cut. We have won the right to marry who we love. Gun regulations are not going to be as big of a challenge and it won't take as long. There's something else to add to my queer agenda. Don't forget to write that shit down. Spell it right. "I predict a win."
I don't ever want to see this again in America and I don't care if you are straight or gay; I don't care if you are blue, white, purple, green, religious or not. I will NEVER wish this on you or your family. LOVE ALWAYS WINS IN THE END. #LoveWins Add that to my queer agenda in big block letters, just like that! "LOVE WILL WIN"